I’m an introvert and an internal processor & lately my processor has been on overload. Why?
I’m in a funk.
You see, there’s a situation going on in my life right now that I cannot write about here because it’s not my story to tell but it affects me deeply. To the core.
What do you do when it’s not your story to tell? You keep your mouth shut & pray.
Just because I’m keeping my mouth shut doesn’t mean my mind shuts off, it’s basically following me around like a Pig Pen cloud of dust, you know, like Charlie Brown’s friend that’s constantly surrounded by a cloud of dust. That’s how I feel. My internal processor has exploded in a cloud of dust.
My husband & family & close friends are helping me sort through the dust cloud but there are a few things that I’m doing that have been helpful.
In no particular order, here’s how an internal processor like me deals with a funk:
1. Some of you may be confused about my “Work”. Caroline works? Remember last month when I told you about Two for One VA? Karrie & I work together, and even though we have had a slow start, we are enjoying working together & helping our current clients.
- I finished the Harry Potter* series & loved them. I may have even read a few passages out loud, using my best British accent.
- Notes from a Blue Bike* by Tsh Oxenreider – it arrived on my doorstep a few days ago & it’s helping clear the dust cloud.
- The Antelope in the Living Room* by Melanie Shankle – a book about marriage with some comic relief that should be arriving on my doorstep later today.
- daily devotional written by Billy Graham – short, sweet & to the point. Just what I need right now.
American Idol. The combination of Keith, JLo & Harry make me happy.
Counting the days until May 5. #JackisBack
Mostly in my journal lately & that’s completely ok & therapeutic for me. Some days it’s only a few lines and other days it’s a few pages.
When it’s cold outside, I knit. I haven’t picked up my knitting needles in over a year but on Super Bowl Sunday, I decided to give it a try again. I have a bag full of yarn just waiting to be created into something. My hexipuff making days have stalled out for now & I needed to train my brain again to knit & purl.
Those of you that know me well, know that this is hard for me. At the beginning of the year, 2 of my local friends encouraged me to get back into the gym & we started going to classes again. The first day I pulled a butt muscle during warm up exercises. I’m not joking. Lame, right? I went to a few more classes that week and didn’t push myself too hard. Then, the next week, I got sick. Maybe my body was trying to tell me something? Exercising makes me sick? No! If there’s one way to make the dust cloud easier to navigate through, it’s exercising.
My husband & kids are extremely helpful in this area. Watching them laugh is seriously contagious. Also, remembering that I pulled a butt muscle during warm up exercises makes me laugh too.
I shared our latest playlist with you earlier this week.
I never thought this was true about me but Greg pointed it out and I have denied it for a while - shopping is therapy for me. Sometimes it’s just window shopping & sometimes that window shopping turns into a little item getting placed in my cart or arriving on my doorstep.
Before I shut my computer down at night, I grab a sticky note and write down my list of to-dos for the next day & put the sticky note on my desk beside my computer. Before I open my computer the next day, there’s my list reminding what’s most important to get done today.
Even when the temperatures are below freezing & the ground is covered with a blanket of snow. Dress warmly & get outside, even if it’s just for a few minutes.
Eat and drink healthy things. Simple as that but this can be a struggle because the funk in me wants to eat Lays potato chips as the main course! I fight the funk with fresh fruits & veggies with a side of Lays. Much better, right?
What helps you clear the dust cloud & fight the funk?
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