Out of My Heart the Mind Speaks

Ever have one of those “man in the mirror” moments?  I’m not talking about an encounter with Michael Jackson but one of those refining moments where you can clearly see God breaking down the walls of your heart.

While participating in a 21 day fast this month with some friends here in Lemont, God revealed some major artery clogging heart stuff.  Don’t panic! I’m not talking literal heart stuff, which can be serious, but I’m talking about spiritual heart stuff, which can be life-altering if it isn’t routinely checked.

I’m still trying to process my thoughts and most of those thoughts will never enter this online space.  Not everything that enters my Moleskine journal comes to life in this space. That sounds arrogant, but it’s not meant to be. Sometimes our thoughts need to stay in the Moleskine.

So, why am I telling you?  It’s one of the reasons I’ve been quiet on here recently.

I’m a contemplator {that’s a word, right?}. An internal processor.  My internal processor has been working on overload this month.  It has even affected my dreams.

Out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks, right?  But for me ~ out of the overflow of the heart the mind speaks.

I have a situation that I have done everything I know to do to resolve it but it’s not working.  The resolution is out of my control and it’s making my mind implode. My mind won’t shut up.  I’ve tried to drown it out with loud music, Gilmore Girl reruns, doodling in my journal, making Zoo Doos…you name it! The usual aversion strategies haven’t been working.

That’s typical when God is clearing my arteries.

The resolution will come, one way or another and I need to trust Him. Thank you for sticking with me during my quietness.

“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3